Hi all,
I'm looking for some guidance on a incident that happened around 3 weeks ago. I would like to preface this post by saying I know what I did was wrong and I am genuinely sorry.
I was taking a Thameslink train from Brighton to London Victoria. When the train got to East Croydon about 10 revenue protection officers got on and started checking tickets. I had purchased the correct ticket and so I thought things would be okay however when I went to load my railcard I realised that it had expired towards the end of November. In panic and with the officer approaching, I decided I would tell him that my phone had died. They had just fined the lady in front of me £120 on the spot and I was very nervous so I came up with this excuse. I know that it is wrong to have an expired railcard but I genuinely was not aware of this and have literally no history of doing anything like this before.
When he approached I provided my ticket and when asked for my railcard I informed him that my phone was dead. He took down my details and told me I had 14 days to upload proof of a valid railcard. However, when he asked for my name I gave a fake name and I also gave the wrong address (an address two doors down from mine- stupid, I know). I know that this was incredibly stupid of me but I genuinely panicked in the moment. He was asking me things like my eye colour, my hair colour, my height and reading me my rights and I genuinely got so stressed out at the prospect of a fine that I messed up and gave a fake name and address. He took a picture of my ticket so I assume that through this they will access information about me a well as my other journey. I checked my journey history and since November I have probably made around 7 journeys with this expired railcard. These were all single advanced off peak tickets.
I have a genuine history of severe anxiety and I know this is no excuse but I would have never knowingly travelled with an expired railcard because I am such an anxious traveler! I literally had a session with my therapist an hour before I got on the train and we were listing all the hypothetical things that could go wrong because I was so anxious to get on the train. When I eventually got to Victoria I just sat in the toilets for an hour because I was so scared to leave and since the incident I have been so incredibly stressed about the fine and the lying about my name and address. I cried so much that night and barely ate because I am a student and don't even have that kind of money in my account to be able to pay the fine. I even wanted to call them that night and confess to everything but they don't have a phone number and it was a thursday night. I purchased a railcard the very next day. This was a case of me genuinely not knowing that my railcard had expired but either way I messed up and I messed up more by giving a fake name.
I have since spoken to my therapist and she has advised my to be honest and pay the fine however I can. She also mentioned in my letter that I should mention my history and my anxiety. I won't know about any letters they send to me as I gave the wrong address, however my witness statement receipt says the address I gave so I can go over and ask them if they've received any letters for me.
My question is, since I gave a fake name and address is there even just the tiniest chance that this will go away or will I have to spend the rest of my life looking over my shoulder waiting to be slapped with a fine. If I do end up magically finding the letter they sent, can I just pay the fine and not mention anything about having given a fake name? I'm not sure how the money is paid to Thameslink but can't I just pay the fine with my bank card without having to let them know about the name/address issue? Any help would be much appreciated!
I'm looking for some guidance on a incident that happened around 3 weeks ago. I would like to preface this post by saying I know what I did was wrong and I am genuinely sorry.
I was taking a Thameslink train from Brighton to London Victoria. When the train got to East Croydon about 10 revenue protection officers got on and started checking tickets. I had purchased the correct ticket and so I thought things would be okay however when I went to load my railcard I realised that it had expired towards the end of November. In panic and with the officer approaching, I decided I would tell him that my phone had died. They had just fined the lady in front of me £120 on the spot and I was very nervous so I came up with this excuse. I know that it is wrong to have an expired railcard but I genuinely was not aware of this and have literally no history of doing anything like this before.
When he approached I provided my ticket and when asked for my railcard I informed him that my phone was dead. He took down my details and told me I had 14 days to upload proof of a valid railcard. However, when he asked for my name I gave a fake name and I also gave the wrong address (an address two doors down from mine- stupid, I know). I know that this was incredibly stupid of me but I genuinely panicked in the moment. He was asking me things like my eye colour, my hair colour, my height and reading me my rights and I genuinely got so stressed out at the prospect of a fine that I messed up and gave a fake name and address. He took a picture of my ticket so I assume that through this they will access information about me a well as my other journey. I checked my journey history and since November I have probably made around 7 journeys with this expired railcard. These were all single advanced off peak tickets.
I have a genuine history of severe anxiety and I know this is no excuse but I would have never knowingly travelled with an expired railcard because I am such an anxious traveler! I literally had a session with my therapist an hour before I got on the train and we were listing all the hypothetical things that could go wrong because I was so anxious to get on the train. When I eventually got to Victoria I just sat in the toilets for an hour because I was so scared to leave and since the incident I have been so incredibly stressed about the fine and the lying about my name and address. I cried so much that night and barely ate because I am a student and don't even have that kind of money in my account to be able to pay the fine. I even wanted to call them that night and confess to everything but they don't have a phone number and it was a thursday night. I purchased a railcard the very next day. This was a case of me genuinely not knowing that my railcard had expired but either way I messed up and I messed up more by giving a fake name.
I have since spoken to my therapist and she has advised my to be honest and pay the fine however I can. She also mentioned in my letter that I should mention my history and my anxiety. I won't know about any letters they send to me as I gave the wrong address, however my witness statement receipt says the address I gave so I can go over and ask them if they've received any letters for me.
My question is, since I gave a fake name and address is there even just the tiniest chance that this will go away or will I have to spend the rest of my life looking over my shoulder waiting to be slapped with a fine. If I do end up magically finding the letter they sent, can I just pay the fine and not mention anything about having given a fake name? I'm not sure how the money is paid to Thameslink but can't I just pay the fine with my bank card without having to let them know about the name/address issue? Any help would be much appreciated!
