I'm glad that I went out this evening and did a big shop with more shelf-stable goods than usual now.
I have worn a face mask once, for about 10 minutes, as I briefly had to enter station premises. During that time I could feel the need to rip it off my face mounting and it was starting to take a great deal of effort not to do so.
I have no problem attempting to wear a face mask in situations where it feels necessary or appropriate, but I'm concerned about if I reach that point where I can't handle it being on any longer. I'm hoping that my tolerance will be greater than it was the last time I tried to wear one if the weather remains cooler. I don't want to find myself stuck in a situation where I'm not allowed to take it off, but can't bear it any longer. Could I claim an exemption? Possibly, but I'm only just starting to come to terms with the fact that maybe I do have issues with some things and I'm not really ready to announce that to the world at large.
I'm concerned that this might push me back into a state where I will not go shopping at all. When this first started I found that I couldn't bring myself to go shopping at all for nearly two months, until the point where I desperately had to force myself go as I had already lost an unhealthy amount of weight through lack of food. I don't want to end up back in that situation.
Face coverings do take some getting used to - the first time you put one on it can feel very weird, oppressive and uncomfortable and it's a completely natural reaction to want to rip it off.
We're not generally used to things touching out face at all, let alone have something constantly against the skin. We're also not used to the heat from the exhaled air unless we've done a jacket right up in winter
It's something that most folk are likely to need some time to adjust to and to feel comfortable (or at least less uncomfortable) with.
You may find it helpful to try wearing one in a safe environment (eg at home where there is no pressure on you) for short periods to get more accustomed to it. Gently extending the wear-time bit by bit as you get used to it.
This should hopefully give you the confidence to go and do things knowing that you will be fine for maybe 15/20/30 minutes or longer
I don't know what kind of mask you used but it's definitely worth trying different styles - the lightweight surgical type masks can feel a lot less invasive.
I've got a couple of handmade ones and they feel a bit enclosing and warm but are otherwise quite comfy. I got one from ASDA that is really lightweight but does make you've put a pair of white pants on you face which is really not a good look
Scarfs, buffs etc are all options too and may feel more natural and normal (the sort of thing you'd wear on a cold winters day)
I've found it the interaction of a mask and my beard can be bloody irritating (I'm not used to a beard anyway - that's been a lockdown experiment) and can really set off the nerves in my face - I suspect the beard may have to go.
I don't know what the rules will be in England but under the Scottish guidelines if you found you really don't tolerate a face covering well and it impacts on your health and wellbeing then you absolutely would be exempt from wearing one and you are not obliged to reveal the reasons if challenged
I do hope you can find something that works for you